Let’s face it, this is hardly a glamorous place, one often associated with drug and alcohol addiction. My personal addiction is control. Being a Futurist (not just for others but for myself too), I have been able to rely on my ability to see an outcome with great certainty.
Except when I can’t.
Yes, I am able to clearly see and predict the future for others, but this gift went dormant for myself one year.
Although I clearly “saw” and “knew” that my house would sell, it didn’t.
I remembered an evening when I should have been celebrating a major accomplishment, yet I could only see the goal I hadn’t achieved. I literally cried, wailing “Tell me what to do…I am so tired…!”
No peace or answers came immediately…the only guidance I had was a very strong urge to spend time alone. It took me a while to really get this message. I kept trying to “do” things with others, and “get things done”, but I was short tempered and reactive.
When I finally did take time and distanced myself, I was met with a lot of judgement. And as opposed to defending myself, I kept my distance.
Everyone has a “rock bottom” unique to them. One thing I cover in my new online course The Visionary, is how to use your trauma, event or “rock bottom” as a springboard for greatness.
I knew when I had this particular longing to be alone, I had to honor it or nothing would get done.
So when you reach your “bottom”, follow the strongest positive urge you have, even if it doesn’t make sense.
I say “positive urge”, because, let’s face it: “Rock bottom” often feels like a “forever state”. That said, you may be moved to make drastic, permanent negative actions. Thoughts of suicide, for example, are a strong clue that you are at “rock bottom”, but it’s not a positive (or reversible) urge.
Note: You won’t win any popularity contests, but those who are truly your friends will understand.
The others? Fuck ‘em.
(I say this with love. We can’t run around pleasing others while sacrificing ourselves.)
Next week, we’ll move to the next lesson. It has a “surprise ending”!